Where was my Community?
I can remember crying out to God because there was a time that I yearned for a true sense of community and for friendships that were loyal. Even though I was blessed with a loving husband and beautiful children, my heart longed for true friends.
Friends in the World
While living a worldly lifestyle I had friends of all sorts who were from various walks of life. Time spent with them was mistaken for quality, when in actuality, I was compromising my soul. I began clinging to these so-called friendships as an escape from the stark reality of my diminished spiritual life. I convinced myself that these friendships were what mattered because maybe somehow, popularity would fill the gaping hole in my soul. They didn’t, they made it worse.
What started as casual talk ended up turning into gossip and backstabbing. Time spent alone with these women turned into plans of claiming our independence from our Husbands. We planned outings to places that we had no business being in, that could have sabotaged our marriages. They were friendships that left me feeling hopeless and drained. Yet, I was duped into thinking that there was nothing better. These were my “friends”.
“Do not be misled: “Bad company corrupts good character.”
1 Corinthians 15:33